Unbearable

I never use 10 on the pain scale. I save it. But I have 9 migraines. Where I make it from the bed to the couch. Where I cannot move. Cannot

I save my 10’s so you won’t hear me say I have a 10 migraine. I had a couple and I compare all migraines to those specific ones. So my worst migraines are a 9. And it is non-functional. It is unbearable. It is couch bound and unable to leave the house, do chores, work or do a damn thing.

And that is today. I am writing this to distract me from the pain before bed. Not being sure I will be able to sleep because of the pain level. Not sure how I will function on my work day tomorrow if this persists.

Losing days are horrible things. Time you will never get back. And I used to feel guilty about this but it isn’t my fault the pain peaks to a level I cannot handle. That I wish I could gouge my damn eyes out. That the pain consumes all of my brains attention. That it is all consuming. I refuse to feel guilty. Yet, I hate lost days.

It is important to rest though. Important to engage in self-care. Get into a dark, silent space. Use your ice pack. Use a migraine balm. Man, I slather that stuff on. Do some relaxation pain to just breathe through the pain.

Then just curl up and binge Netflix or what I movie. Something that requires no brainpower. I binged Daredevil today. Lay in a ball of pain and watched that.

Now, here is hoping the painsomnia subsides.

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5 thoughts on “Unbearable

  1. Oh how I relate! The bouts of migraines FMS comes with leaves me bed-bound whenever they strike. Self-care is essential, being attentive to triggers and all that. Thanks for sharing through your pain.

    Hugs!

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