I owe, I owe it’s off to work I go

Have too much ambition_ On the fast track and don't know how to get off_Try migraines.

I work part-time, now, because the pain clinic said I could not work full time. But Financially part time isn’t working for me. Either. And they do not want me on disability, for whatever reason.

Fact is I need to earn money. Preferably online in the comfort of my home where I control the enviroment and preferably a writing job. That would be the ideal. As it is I’ll take anything. Looking for admin part-time, full-time. Anything but sales. And work form home as well.

Here is the thing I missed a day at work. Because I had to. But I don’t think they get I had to. I don’t think they get pushing though the pain and working anyway to slammed by the pain and completely non-functional. They just don’t. I don’t expect them to but I get the feeling they think I am amusing myself on my sick days instead of curled up in a ball of misery. My sales have been poor because I get in a lot of pain and just do the transaction before me… and not anything else. And then when I try I am all migraine confused, befuddled and aphasia brained… it doesn’t make much sense and no one is buying what migraine brain is spitting and stuttering out. I can’t so sales anymore. Not with this pain crowded brain.

And then the guilt hits you. You let down your team. And they were likely very busy. Always the guilt.

And then you think they will find a reason to fire me. No one likes the weakest link. The sick one. The one that can’t think through the pain. Struggling to pick things up slowly. But missing too many days.

I just want to find a place and a job I can excel at with my disability. That I can feel good that I did a good job. Excel at it like I used to excel at every job.

Why don’t people pay me for my exceptional writing?

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