Weight and migraines

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Remember the days when your neurologist would tell you to lose weight due to your migraines… after years of preventative treatments that caused the weight gain in the first place? Good times. Because obesity was a risk factor for migraine and migraine chronicfication.

Well, now underweight is added to the list.

So what you are looking for is the Goldilocks zone.

“As obesity and being underweight are potentially modifiable risk factors for Migraine, awareness of these risk factors is vital for both people with Migraine and doctors,” said study author B. Lee Peterlin, DO, of Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine and a member of the American Academy of Neurology. “More research is needed to determine whether efforts to help people lose or gain weight could lower their risk for Migraine.Migraine Again

And here is the clincher… they have no clue if us losing or gaining weight could help with migraines we ALREADY have.

Before you diss the research it was a significant meta-analysis of 12 studies involving 288,981 participants.  Obese individuals were 27% more likely to have migraines than people of average weight. This would be a BMI 30 or higher. People in the underweight area 13% more likely to have migraine. BMI less than 18.5.

“Given that obesity is associated with a variety of pain disorders and with depression, the finding is not surprising but it is important,” he said, adding that it makes sense “because obesity induces inflammation and inflammation contributes to pain.”

What he found surprising, however, was that “the underweight are at risk for migraine and the mechanisms here are less clear.” Medscape

Study limitations are that in some of the studies BMI was self-reported and people tend to lower their BMI.

So it is a matter of keeping the BMI over 18.5 and below 30. Forever. Yeah. With medications that cause a boatload of weight gain. Or people like me with hypothyroidism on top of things, that is always fun. Not to even mention other comorbids.

I know weight has never been a factor for me. But my BMI has always been within 22-29. Currently at 23. It went high when I gained a lot from meds. I was going strong for a bit there. Lyrica I suspect, which long term can cause pretty continuous weight gain. Then I lost 20 pounds on topamax. And then a couple years later lost another 25 due to persistent nausea and lack of appetite.  I was a little underweight when I was 18, but migraines didn’t hit until I was twenty and by then I was right where I should have been weight wise. And I still got migraines and went chronic. So it is a risk factor, but it is one of many. Doctors focus on it a lot, but we have the migraines already do we not? This is a risk factor for Getting migraines.

Although as I said, obesity is also a risk factor for chronification but not sure about the research behind that one since the research for chronification and chronic migraines never seems to be substantial. Others for chronication are life stress, depression, medication overuse, improper use of acute medication, chronic sleep deprivation and having had a trauma in life. I think depression was my risk factor although they did tell me my migraines went chronic due to central sensitization.  Depression did seem to jump in once I was chronic… due to the pain and all.

 

 

Right? Wrong.

BrainfogA common migraine attack prodrome symptom.

Brain fog is common with migraines. All that pain is hard to think through. And I have fibromyalgia as well which rather enhances the fog. I wrote about the issues I have with brain fog here: In The Land of Brain Haze it Isn’t Very Brainy Out

Anyway, there is a particular thing that has happened with chronic migraines that is annoying to me. I have lost that ability to tell Right from Left.

I say Right and point Left. When I do so I mean Left. I point in the right direction. My hands are always right. My words are always wrong. Makes for some fine direction giving I’ll tell you that.

I am aware of it now. The trick I do when giving directions or using the terms is I move my right hand slightly, to indicate to my brain RIGHT. And then say right or left. It works.

Recently I was test driving a car and so discovered I don’t do well with listening to directions either. I hear ‘turn left’ and I immediately go to turn right. My brain still mixes the words up when I Hear them as well. So I had to really concentrate on what he was telling me because otherwise, that test drive would have been one hell of an adventure.

It is odd. It happened around 6 years ago. And I cannot precisely say when because I didn’t notice right away. Only when it was pointed out by my spouse. And then one day when I gave directions to this one fellow, After, it occurred to me I had pointed to the right and told him to turn left. In other words, he didn’t find what he was looking for from me for sure. I started to pick up on this fact I was using the words wrong every single time. So I began to move a few fingers on my right hand and remind myself I am right-handed and then say the word… at first, this caused a delay, but now it is less so.

I blame the migraines because of the suddenness of it and because it messes with my spacial orientation as is. But who knows? With a migraine/FM combo a lot of brain misfiring going on in that brain ball.

Limitations

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My doctor is pretty adamant I should work from home or, at the very least, in town. Due to, yes, the vertigo. Which seems to have a bit of a mileage meter on it. Ten minutes of drive time and I am fine. Over that and it is pushing it and will generally trigger mild, moderate to severe vertigo. The more I do it, the worse it gets. One of the reasons I had to go on leave was it was getting to the point bouts were severe and I couldn’t, in fact, drive to get to work.

This is a problem for me. I tried to do as she said. I looked and looked and looked some more. I applied. And nada came of it.

It is a pickle since there isn’t actually any way to treat the vertigo. It is vestibular migraines and that is that. I have tried preventatives in the past but my response record to preventatives is pretty nill. Botox is working well for me though, just not for vertigo. Just for intensity of pain really. And neck pain.

I am short on time for a solution though. There may simply not be a viable one.

Casting call from Genuine

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Genuine contacted me via email to see if any migraineurs would like to respond to their casting call in a project featuring migraines.  This is an online questionnaire you can fill out if you are intrigued. They are based out of New York and if you have any questions feel free to contact them. Those selected for the final film will be compensated and submissions are due by Monday, April 17th. It is 600$/day for the shoot with additional compensation for those selected for the final edit.

I did get clarification from another blogger who said they cannot, at this time, disclose the company but it will be a documentary style ad for a medication where the participants will be asked about how migraines affect their lives (jobs, family and so forth).

 

 

“13 Reasons why” was not for me

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I got right into this series and watched it like crazy. I knew it was about suicide but I watched it anyway. I shouldn’t have. I can read a book about suicide and I am fine but visually seeing a suicide scene and aftermath… it hit me like a fist.

I remembered my first suicide attempt. It was from pain and depression from pain. Like the show, I cut into myself. Watched myself bleed because I wanted to see the life flow out of me. I wanted the violence of it. Chronic pain has no blood. You suffer and suffer but no one sees the wounds. I wanted the wound to show in my death. No one should have to suffer that much pain and function. I knew that fundamentally. I thought it was cruel and madness. And madness for me to particulate in it like it was okay to do that to a person. I felt useless and worthless at the same time. A burden. And I didn’t want to be one. I knew people would mourn but I knew they would know at least I wasn’t in pain anymore. You have to be in that headspace to truly know how deep and dark it is. But with the relentless physical pain of the moment tormenting you, all you want is it to end.

All that untreated pain. That overwhelming depression. I’m amazed I survived as long as I did.

When you survive an attempt it is traumatic. You see the impact. And that you see in the Netflix show as well. The mother finds the body and the father comes in and it is a devastating scene. You see their suffering throughout and know you too could have caused that. Surviving you know the impact you could have had. You see the effects on your family. See the fear and worry. I again felt that impact and worse felt how much worse it could have been. It was like a punch to the gut.

The show just was like a flashback. Of pain, of the trauma, of the impact. Of how hard it was after to reconcile not wanting to hurt those I love in such a brutal way and not wanting to survive with the pain. I couldn’t. Someone always suffers. I read somewhere that suicide is like a bomb. It takes out the person but the shrapnel wounds those around the person. The closest get wounded the most but those not as close also get wounded. The suffering is widespread. How does one reconcile a life of suffering or passing all that suffering on to a group of people?

Anyway, I loved the series in regards to bullying. It shows the impact one’s actions and words and inaction can have on another’s life. Something teens should think about. It doesn’t focus on the mental illness aspect but you can see the signs of depression plain as day. The isolation, she cut her hair, stopped hobbies, her poem, talked about numbness, the suicidal thoughts and long insomnia walk.

It is just not something I should have watched. I have been out of sorts all day. Listless and sad. It re-hashed something that was very traumatic for me. And layered it in a devastating storyline that didn’t hold the punches. I felt for her. I felt for me. It reminded me of a very dark time for me.

I am still depressed. Depression 2.0 I call it. Because I am treated with Abilify which takes away my Plummets of Doom. The Deep Dives into Despair. Evens things out. But I still have this softer depression. I no longer have suicidal intent. My brain has a switch. With depression, you keep fighting to a point. And then Switch, you don’t. You give up, curl up in a ball and wish it would all go away. And become vulnerable to suicidal thoughts.

Watching ’13 reasons why’ was good, disturbing and so very sad. It will hit everyone hard. As it should. But if you have survived suicide it may just hit you harder. All the memories may come to the surface again. I am not saying it is a bad thing. I don’t hide from my suicide attempts, I regularly talk about them. I want to end the stigma. I want people to be able to talk about it. Maybe showing such a vivid scene will help with that. But someone who has been suicidal, is depressed or has suicidal ideation there really ought to be a warning on there for that. We see a lot more in there that others do not. And then we reflect it back on ourselves. I’d say better to want with someone you can talk to.

Frames of Mind

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Announcement of this awareness campaign has come out to post your art to help awareness of migraine.

Select submissions chosen by notable migraine experts will be displayed at the 59th Annual Scientific Meeting of the American Headache Society from June 8June 11, 2017 at the Westin Boston Waterfront in Boston, MA and other migraine-related events throughout the remainder of 2017. Additionally, art submissions will be displayed on the My Chronic Migraine Facebook Page.

 

Migraineur Monday Musings: Just a headache

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It is just a headache. It is a headache if you get the headache portion of a migraine attack. It is also a disease. That doesn’t necessarily come with a headache. But it is a profoundly disruptive, complicated, complex, painful, life altering headache disease.

So it really does minimize my struggle with it for the last couple of decades to say I just have a headache. If it was just a simple headache you’d think by now someone would have figured out how to stop them from being so frequent.

It minimizes the complexity of the disease itself. Doesn’t mention it is a disease and that we have attacks with 4 stages, of which only one is the Headache stage. Again not necessary to the attack itself if one gets silent migraines. It is a complex disease.

You make it sound like a couple of Tylenol or Advil and I Ought to be good to go. But that isn’t the case because treatment is also very complex. And too much of a good thing can cause rebound headaches, so I cannot even treat every migraine I have.

You seem to imply that I should be able to power through it if it is ‘just a headache’ because you cannot comprehend the pain or what powering through it does to a person over time over and over again.